christmas is tomorrow!!!!!!!! :)

yeayyy im soooo excited christmas is tomoro. today i am right now about to go dry my hair becasue i just got out of the shower. but anyways. tonight we are going to my uncle tim and auntie krista's house for christmas eve after we go to mass with the ENTIRE family which is like...20 of us. im soooo excited. i can not wait. i love that anticipation feeling. i dont know.

me emily and anne just took a really cool picture 2 days ago ahah me and 2 of my bestiessss :) <3 im totally blessed. merry christmas eve

.pce. <3. :).

ooo btw this is my other best friend in the whole wide worlddd :)

this is shatajah. she is also one of my best friends in the whole wide world. i dont know what i would do without her. :)

5 DAYS TIL CHRISTMAS....7DAYS TIL THE CHRIS BROWN CONCERT!!!!!

as you can see from the title...im OBVIOUSLY excited. yeeeeayayyyyyyyy! i mean who ISNT excited about christmas. everything is always sooo...sooo...perfect around this time of year. i wish it could be like this all year round. its amazing. i love it. AND PLUS i get to see chris brown two days after christmas?? hott hott hott!! o m g. honestly. he is gorgeous. i am soooo excited about this upcoming week!!! ahhh. i dont have really nething else to write so ya. thats it....byeee <3

this is what best friends look like. amanda. emily. anne. lauren. and me. hahahaha. good times good times. just thought i would say that they always have my back no matter what. we are always there for each other and that means the world to me. i love you guys to death. i dont know what i would do without you :)

it's wednesday.

this is just something that i wrote for an english project. i thought that it was kinda good so here it is. it was based on the word....phone. ya.



“NO MOM!” Lily screamed at the top of her lungs, “I HATE YOU!” She ran down three flights of stairs, out the front door, down the front steps, and onto the sidewalk infront of the aparment building. She looked up and saw her mom opening the window and beginning to yell down to her but she didn’t get a chance because Lily ran away too fast, and down the street before the words could even come out of her mouth.

She felt her phone vibrate and heard it beginning to ring from deep inside of her swear pantspocket and once again, she ignored the call. After Lily left she decided to just run. Learning her mom had done that to her completely broke her heart. Her feet began to accelerater as she continued running. A light snow began to fall. Once again her phone rang. Lily ignored the call again. She didn’t want to talk to her mom. She was now just about four blocks away from the apartment building when she finally came to a brisk walk. The streets of Manhattan were so loud on a Saturday night. Cars racing, horns blaring and at least five cars with sirens had whizzed past her. For almost the hundredth time, her phone rang. She slowly slopped it out of her pocket and into her cold hand. Quickly, the weathers intensity picked up. As lily looked down at her phone and realized all of her missed calls were not from here mom. In fact, none of them were. It was a number of which she had never seen before and didn’t recognize. Quickly, she flipped her phone open, “h-h-hello?” Lily asked into the receiver. A man with a deep voice came onto the phone.
“Is this Lily Winston?” he asked her calmly.
Um, yes sir,” she responded. There was a long uncomfortable silence on both lines of the phones. “How did you get this number, who are you?”
The man took a long deep breath and began to talk again. “You were the last person your mother called in her phone,” he took another deep breath, “I’m sorry ma’ma. There’s been an accident…” He continued talking, but that’s all Lily remembered hearing out of his mouth. All of a sudden, she couldn’t even remember why she was mad at her mom in the first place, or why she stormed off like that. The only thing that she could remember were the last words she said to her mom, “I HATE YOU.”
Lily dropped her phone and fell down on her knees on the sidewalk…crying. Her tears like the blizzard…hard…and endless.

its been a good....busy weekend.

so my weekend was definatly interesting.
so it obviously started out on friday. i was suposed to sing the national anthem for the girls freshman basketball game and then 15 minutes b4 the game coach j comes up to me and goes sorry. you cant sing it. so i called mom and she was mad. like really mad. so she went in and had an imediate meeting with mr sherwin and he said that i could sing the national anthem at the VARSITY game and everyone loved it! all the coaches came over and said how they liked it and even the woodstock coaches (yes all of them) came over and shook my hand.

so then saturday. i woke up to look at my clock saying 1030. i was like hmmm i slept kind lateish. so i got ready and dressed and went out to the kitchen to see james not up and mom and dad still home. ya. truns out my clock is 4 hours fast. it was only 630 in the mronging. ugh. so then later i had to go to training. then babysit james. THEN babysit julia. and thats just a story in itself. ugh.

so then today. nine years ago my papa died. so we went up to my nana's church in newington and met her, my cousins, and my aunts and uncles there. then after all 15 of us went out to lunch. thats always entertaining. then we had to go to my aunts house. we didnt get home til like three. ya it was a good weekend to make a long story short.

iv learned a couple of things about myself and my friends and now things are just really complicated and more so than they should be. actually they shouldnt be complicated at all. but w/e.
bye. /span>

its sunday.

today is sunday. its been a regular day. basically. ya. yesterday was james's birthday and that was fun i guess. this weekend has really just been regular. not really an exciting weekend. i have most definatly calmed down after the last two posts. but i havent changed my mind. im standing strong and true to what i said and that's that. i dont even care what anyone says about me or my friedns anymore. if they have enough time to rag on other ppl they obviously have no lives of their own. its sad.
tomorrow i need to talk to coach j and get a basketball scheduale so i know when the home games r becasue i am singing the national anthem =) yes i am excited. what else is tomorrow? i feel like im forgeting somehting? i dont know.
o right. today we had a gift wrapping thing at church and me and elise were their. aparently im better at wrapping presents than i thought i was....at least...compared to other ppl im pretty good. i was happy with it. it was a lot of fun this year. but not saying any names cough cough...amanda....never showed. ugh. it was upsetting. but we had fun anyways. =) ya. so i should probably go try to figure out my algebra homework and finish my english paper. maybe il type later. not sure yet.
bye <3

here i am again.

i forgot something.
"playa's".
ok. look. this goes out to one of my close friends. YOU'RE BEING PLAYED. look. i know we have both been there...but you obviously didnt learn from it. ive learned how they talk, they walk, they treat people and how FAKE they are to the person their playing's friends. i know all of the things they pull. and you know what you are right. you are reliving last year. and i am sorry for you. so you know my number for when you need to talk about your heartache when you learn what a jerk this guy really is. dial it and talk to me. im there for you. i wont say i told you so....but dont worry...il most DEFINATLY be thinking it. im there for you. i just dont want to see you go thru what i did. i've learned from my experience. have you?

and the saga continues.

i dont know about you. but i personally learn from mistakes. sure i would love to go back and redo some things but that is most definatly not possibly. so everyone. here's a little thing for you. The past is the past. so if someone didnt like something that happened or wasnt happy with the way something turned out...or now just completley regret what they did....STOP BRINGING IT UP OVER AND OVER TO THAT PERSON! honestly people? have a little bit or consideration.
it honestly AMAZES me the way some people treat others. i mean honestly. i know that parents couldnt have taught them that. so why do they do that? do they not see the internal damage that it is causing to other people? and then they're like na na i didnt do nething wer friends. and then you hear what they say about you wen you're not they're. or they take your stuff. tourment you. tell one of your close friedns that wat you said to her was a lie. make that friend turn on you. its pathetic. i mean these people....and you all know the kind that im talkin about. the kind that we all make way for in the halls because we dont want any beef with them. or wer too afraid to bump them so we move to the side as they walk by. dont even pretend you dont know who i m talkin about becasue you know you do. these people think that they are at the top. they're the "kings" and "queens" of us. that they run the school. because no one else is willing to stand up for themselves against them. i dont know about all of you. but today...im done. im totally sick of it. they sicken me. people treating other people the way that they do is just barbarak. i mean. the people who want absolutly nothing to do with them, they want something to do with. the ones that you try your best to stear clear of...come and find YOU! it makes no sense. they are too busy trying to mess you up and screw up your life that they have none of their own. its sad. and pathetic. i dont know how everyone else feels about it. but the next time one of them starts somehting on me. im gona do something about it. it's called standing up for myself. today i was pretty upset about what happened...and no im not gonna write it down. some of you know. some of you dont. but i was upset. and that doesnt happen to often or too easily. and i felt pretty bad. but then i got home and started thinking..."what could they possibly have against me?" iv just been their target for the past year and i've done nothing to them. and have also done nothing to stand up for myself becasue i didn't want to make anything worse than it already was. but now. no. im done letting it slide. done pretending that i dont care. becasue i do. done having them push everyone who hate them and wants nothing to do with them get pushed around. im done being treated like crap by people who need to bother me to have a life. anyone agree??